hi blog reader. today is 30th November. thnks for him bcause giving me the answer. the answer which i waited for 2 months. guess wht? he really left me. 'i guess it is end of our story, bubye'. see? i don't have any chance to be with him anymore. i am no longer to be his lover anymore. and i am not the chosen girl to complete his life. why I can't get what i want? why i can't get like my friends got?! they're so happy with their couples. how bout me? can't u imagine how i had to through all the pain tht u gave me to me? SEAPOOL, answer me, bullshit! you really wasted my love. this is all your fault! your fault! why you chose me to be your friend tht night, ha?! why u picked me to be your friend from kamarul's friends?! siallllllllllllllllllll! you're destroying everything! fuck! ko lelaki paling ak benci! ko la paling ak benci! jgn pernah ko muncul lg dlm hdup ak! jgn pernah ambil cinta ak lagi! jangan sesekali. ini amaran! :'(

nevermind. well, ini lah yg dikatakan takdir. setiap pertemuan memang ada perpisahan. bukan mudah untuk meninggalkn seseorang yang sgt bermakna dlm hidup kita. tapi bukan lah susah sgt untuk ak memulakan hidup baru tanpa lelaki seperti dia. kalau dulu, Lin Pin Ru ak jadikan sbgai inspirasi ak dlm percintaan. kali ini, Nur Kamadhia akn menjadi rujukan untuk ak meneruskan hidup tanpa dia. semoga hidup ak mendapat hidayah dari Allah SWT untuk memperbetulkan semuanya, insyaAllah. amin.